Gangrene anxiety. How to heal her?
Anxiety is a painful state that we thought of ourselves; thanks to it, we age ahead of time, torment ourselves and torment others ...
There are people who are especially acutely experiencing everything that happens around and consider themselves responsible for it. They have a strongly developed sense of guilt, and it is very difficult for them to maintain peace in the soul. Whatever happens, they are panicked, whether they want it or not. A person should know this peculiarity of his personality; then he will learn to manage anxiety, to control it in order not to torture neither himself nor others.
It's one thing to worry if we are expecting guests, and therefore we clean the house, cook, set the table. At this moment we are active, we are in a hurry, we have a positive charge, life force - after all, we sincerely want everyone to be happy. And quite another - the gangrene of anxiety, which slowly eats away the soul. That painful state of uncertainty that makes a person sick.
The one who endlessly experiences stress through his own fault is opposed by a balanced person, a person who does everything calmly, naturally, lives without panic, without painful worries, that is, as Christ commanded us.
A person must learn to live with the feeling of the presence of God in his life - and gradually this feeling will drive out painful anxiety from his soul. If we can feel the love of God, we will see that all other problems will disappear. We will calm down, our soul will get rid of endless stress, tension, difficulties, which, in fact, practically does not exist. We are crushed by our logic, our rationalism, we rely on our strength, our intellect, our abilities, money and acquaintances, and we trust God very little.
Before it is too late, you need to change it in yourself, and, with your head bowed, say: “Lord, take my life and do whatever you want with it, if only I would feel that You are sending me, that You are holding me, that You are protecting me, that you love me, that you are next to me! That's enough for me! ”
Archimandrite Andrew (Konanos)